Only a dream

I have dreams at night that my boyfriend will leave me or stops loving me or runs off with another girl. I want to cry and scream when they happen. When I wake up I just want to run to him.

I don't know if it's because I truly think it will happen or if it's because I'm so afraid that it could.

I had another last night. I slept so fitfully and felt so horrible when I woke up. I just want to graduate from college so I can go be with him. After living with him for a year, being apart again isn't that bad. I know it won't be long.

When I do have these dreams, I usually walk over to him and just hug him. He knows every time I do this I've had another, even though I don't say anything.

I have these great ideas and hopes of how our lives will be in the future. I think it can only get better, because the past three and a half years have been the best of my life.

I love him so much. He is the most wonderful person I have ever known. I can't wait to move to Virginia.

The next three months won't go by fast enough for me.